Tossing and turning. Eyes open then closed. Noises that are distracting. No voices or visions. Just darkness.

Something doesn’t feel right. Something is trying to get attention. Uneasiness is all around.

What do you do in those moments when you are restless, and maybe even weary? You feel like you’ve done all the praying you can do. You’ve written on every page in your journal. You’ve burned the rubber off the bottom of your running shoes. You’ve eaten all the candy, sweets, and other snacks found in the kitchen. You’ve watched all the mindless tv that you could handle. You’re waiting to make your next move. Yet, you’re not quite sure what that move should be. Just continue to be still. Know that God is in complete and total control. In Horizontal Jesus, Tony Evans’ reminds us that “even when God is silent, He is not still.” Although there may not be any answers at the present moment. Trust God and know that He is still God. Accordingly, He is still moving in your life, on your behalf, …

Most of my thoughts come to me while I’m in the shower. And it was then, as soon as I finished praying, that the thought entered. In that moment, I realized that someone failed to acknowledge a significant day in my life. That’s when the thought process began. How could he have forgotten? I guess we’re not important to him. Why did you expect him to remember? He hasn’t been consistent with special moments anyway for as long as you can remember. You’ve always given him the benefit of the doubt, so what’s different today? There was a moment that we shared over 10 years ago that made this occasion that much more significant. Didn’t he remember that?

The thoughts continued to flood my mind and eventually began to put a damper on my spirit. I tried to shake it off but I couldn’t. Before I knew it, the tears were streaming down my face and for the first few minutes, I couldn’t control or stop them. I began recounting the number of more recent incidents where I was left feeling insignificant …